Amanda Kelly spent her entire life trying to control every aspect of it, while striving for perfection. Her obsession with being perfect, along with her feelings of worthlessness, consumed her. The one thing she thought was perfect in her life was the bond she shared with her best friend, Noah.
Everything was going according to her life plan until she woke up one day and realized she had fallen in love with him. The one thing she couldn’t control was the affect he had on her. Noah had the power to give her one hundred lifetimes of happiness, which also gave him the power to completely devastate her. He was the one thing in her life that was perfect, but she couldn’t allow herself to have him.
Her life begins to unravel. Events take over and force her to let go of her dreams and desires. She needs to realize that a person cannot control the events in their life, only their reaction to them…but will it be too late for her to save her relationship with her best friend?
Present Perfect is a story of how past events have present consequences and how perfect your present could be if you stopped fighting and just allowed it to happen.
“I’ve been unsure about many things in my life except for one thing, that I have always loved him. Every single minute of every single day that I have been on this earth, my heart has belonged to him. It has never been a question, never a doubt. The love had taken on many different forms over the years, but it had always been a constant.”
Amanda Kelly has spent her entire life living in the shadow of her ‘perfect’ older sister. Her parent’s compare them almost every day, and Amanda has had enough. She battles everyday to be able to see herself as ‘perfect’, yet her best friend Noah, has told her so, every day.
Noah and Amanda have been best friends since the day they were born and there is one thing she is certain of, and that is her love for Noah.
Now, where on earth do I begin? – Well… this book was incredible. Present perfect was one of the most well written books I have read in a very long time. Alison Bailey’s use of words got me in all the right places. I felt pain, I felt love, I felt every single emotion that I could ever imagine reading a book.
I have to be completely honest with you though, for a lot of the book, I felt anger. I felt so incredibly angry I almost didn’t finish it. Sometimes all I wanted to do was throw my iPad up against the wall. But if I didn’t feel angry, I wouldn’t have felt the story the way Alison Bailey intended me to feel.
Amanda’s character frustrated me a lot of the time, but at the same time, I knew exactly why she made the decisions she did. It’s the honesty that I love about this book. It’s that honest to god – this is how its going down, type of book. There are no cliché romances here. Noah and Amanda’s relationship is beautiful. Noah adores her, more than she realises. But that fine line between friendship and love is there and Amanda doesn’t want to cross it. She doesn’t want to ruin the only good thing in her life.
“There hasn’t been a day in my life that I haven’t loved you. I just wish you would let me love you.”
Amanda struggles through the entire book with her self-esteem. I really felt a lot of heart ache for her and how she saw herself, especially because Noah didn’t see her that way. Noah wants more, he loves Amanda, but she just wont do it. This was a big thing for me in the book. All I wanted was for Amanda to see for herself, just let herself feel and then maybe she will see what we all see.
“You’ve always been my girl and always will be. No one will ever take me away from you, Tweet. You’re my heart and soul and that’s never going to change, no matter what you say.”
This story stole my entire heart. It ripped it out and broke it into a million pieces. This wasn’t your typical love story about childhood sweet hearts. It’s gut wrenching, soul shattering, heart breaking and totally and utterly beautiful.
Keep a BOX of tissues handy. I needed them. This book will consume you, and it will stay with you, forever.